I guess another FC

I'm not completely sure if I did a blog for this week. So here's an extra one. Just in case.

So I'm sitting here. Hot as all hell. Rewriting this essay, right? Then. I lose it. I just lost the whole thing. I was typing, then BAM! Essay gone. Like what the fudge cake, man ?!  Ugh I'm so annoyed. Just so very annoyed. I have to rewrite my new essay. But I'm so sleepy and I have the worst cramps.
So. This is my life. Let's pray I either wake up early tomorrow or get to school on time. Cus my grades NEEEEEED to stay up. 🙅👋👋 night world.

March 19 blog makeup

FREEBIE

FC - I finally made a decision..

So If you know me, you know that I have been SOOOOO indecisive about what college Im choosing. But thankfully, with the will of Jesus and God and all the holy spirits. I FINALLY made a decision. I sent my deposit in, Im ready to attend, The SUNY College At Old Westbury. I visited the school over spring break, and I really liked it, even though it was raining really bad on the day I went. I enjoyed the campus, I felt really comfortable walking through the hals and sitting in the classrooms. So it made me happy to say that I finally was choosing a place. I finally regained stability in my life. I mean, im not 10000% happy because i was hoping to get away from all things and people from TMA, but I'm not complaining. Its a big campus, and hopefully I can find myself and flourish the way that I never could in such a small environment. I already started buying things for college, and just the thought of it makes me happy. Living on campus and doing everything the way I want to do it, not how my mom wants her house, or the school's policy says I need to dress. NO MORE UNIFORM. even though i never really wore the uniform anyway (shhhhhhh !) I'm off to college in 3 months, and I couldnt be any happier .

CRR - PETRO WHOTA WHATA ?

So theres this book, The Taming of the Shrew, and it's by far the weirdest and one of the most confusing books I've ever read.
So theres Kat, and shes crazy so no man wants to marry her. (We actually never find out why shes crazy) Kat has a younger sister, Bianca, whos kinda irrelevant in this story but for some reason shes a main character. Anyways, this guy wants bianca, but she can't get married until Kat does so first. (Dont ask my why, idunno) So the dude (i forgot his name) that wants Bianca gets some rich a hole to marry Kat, and tells him that he can take all her money once they are married. So Petruchio marries Kat, treats her like dirt, gets the money, blah blah. But all the while the guy that wants Bianca is pretending to be a tutor in order to spend more time with her. Which didnt make any sense to me at all because for all that he coulda just asked her father if he could take her out on a date or something. I guess times were REALLY different back then.


So as the book goes on, a bunch of stuff happens that I should probably go back and review because I'm going to have to write an essay about it :( . And at the end theres this scene where the guys are betting to see which one of their women serves them best. Everyone thought Kat was gonna have a fit, which she did, but for a completely different reason. She was md at the other two women for not wanting to serve their men because that was the way things were supposed to work. (no sweetie, im sorry) I was so mad at Kat at that point because she was such a strong woman. shame shame..

FC - wait, This is still senior year...

So, you know how in my last post I talked about how college was stressing me out and how sending out all the stuff was killing me? Yeah, thats still happeneing.  But I realized the other day that this is still senior year, and despite all the college stuff, I still need to keep my grades up and graduate. I still nee to pay senior dues, pay for prom and decide whats happening with that and all this other stuff.
Oh! And get this, I dont even have a date. I know, right ? The boyfriend and I broke up so now I have no idea who I'm going with, or if im even going at all.

Some girl bought her dress the same EXACT colors that I chose: mint green and black. Typa shuttucky mushrooms is that ?! When she showed me her dress, I was SUPER annoyed. like SUPER FREAKING ANNOYED. So you know what, I'm keeping my colors, I know what her dress looks like, so I just have to look better than her, PERIOD.

I was digressing... Anyways, yeah senior year is almost over and graduation is coming up shortly. I get paranoid sometimes because my biggest fear is that I missed a class from way back when, and I won be on track to graduate. THAT WOULD KILL ME. (see I always get right back to the college thing. Then I'll wake up in the morning and be like "wait, this is still senior year...")

FC College Will Kill Me

I did all my college applications early for a reason: so I wouldnt have to deal with the situations im in now, stressing to mail things out on time. Im pretty sure im done at this point, and just have to wait for my FAFSA to go through. But a lot of schools are asking for things that Ive never even heard of. Like what in the hell is a tax transcript?!!? My mother doesnt even know what that is and she does her taxes every year! Im so confused when it comes to taxes, Im dreading the day I will have to do them myself. UGHHHHH. So the schools are asking for these things plus midyear transcripts and recommendations and all this other stuff. I cant send out a good transcript if im never freaking in class trying to do all this college stuff by a deadline, and keep my sanity !

I already have anxiety issues, but lately, it's getting worse. I used to have really bad nightmares and they stopped for a while, but they're coming back. Last night I had a reccuring one. It started off really well, then all of a sudden im scared for my life, and woke up in a frenzy. This college stuff, along with the school issues, have to be the problem. FAFSA needs to get it together and hurry up because I'm not trying to be put on meds again and I dont think I can take much more of this. I just need to make my decision already.

ID Pre Calculus

Graphing was never my strong suit. Its not all that hard, but you have to know what you're doing. Recently, we learned about graphing tangent -_______- . Sin and Cos were complicated enough. I got a 75 on the test ! I was annoyed when I saw that, because I tried really freaking hard. Ive gone for some extra help, but it doesnt really make a diference because the lesson moves so quickly. If you look away for even one second, you will be confused. When you ask for somethihng to be repeated if you dont understand, theres a collective sigh, especially coming from the teacher. She hates repeating herself, and gets annoyed when we dont understand something. The class has ben with her for a few years now, so they kniw how things work. I sit in the front in every class for a reason, so I can understand things. They know all these little short cuts that we didnt learn in our regular class last year. She was SO right when she said this class would be a challenge. Im very irritated with math lately, and I know my grades tis marking period are gonna SUCK BIG TIME.