Sunday, September 29, 2013


"Come, these are the tales of The Cool,
Guaranteed to go a make you fail from your school,
and seek unholy grails like a fool...
Fast talkin' on the hustle;
No Heaven up above you,
No Hell underneath ye,
and no one will receive thee;
So shed no tear, when we're not here;
and keep your Faith, as we chase The COOL."

Self Selected response, huh ?
Lets see if I can do this without seeming 'extra' as they say.

These are the lyrics to one my favorite songs, titled "The Coolest" by Lupe Fiasco. The whole song is about a dead man, (you'd have to hear it's entrance song, "The Cool" to fully understand) who is in fact, the coolest 'nigga' as stated over and over again in the song (I'm not just saying the word). This man lived his life as a drug dealer, or a hard worker in his eyes; and just wanted to be on top of the game. He remains unnamed but Lupe describes his situation more that perfectly. (If you listen to the song, I suggest reading the lyrics while you do) In reality the man was working towards what was the hood view of success. Yes, he was a street pharmacist, but he was also so smart it was scary. The Coolest, as he will be called, was living his life to support his daughter, and his woman, who he loved an adored more than life its self. He was on his way to the top of the ladder, and wasn't afraid to kill. However, this man was far from cold hearted. He knew there was a God, he knew that he head to repent for his sins, but with his life taken too soon, it became too late. Being that he wasn't bad enough for Hell, or good enough for Heaven, he became stuck. He was stuck here with us, remaining unseen to those who knew, and unimportant to those who didn't, is his song, he asked for forgiveness. repeatedly singing: "Lord please have sympathy, and forgive my cool young history as The Coolest Nigga..." He was aware of his mistakes and knew that he was to stay here until he could have proven his worth. I don't think it ever happened though. He learned that crying wouldn't help, because he no longer could. Watching over his lover and daughter, he reminded them to keep their faith, they were also in the race. Chasing the Cool. They would make it someday.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Blog #1 - Free Choice

I am sitting in my living room this sunday morning, watching a show on MTV called Ridiculousness, laptop open, feet up, with my father does his weekly whatever it is that he does. (I never really bothered to ask).

I am trying to figure out what to write about, and every time I come up with an idea, I shake my head ‘no‘ and change my mind. So eventually I just started to write, and I got an idea. I'll write about how I can't think of what to write about.

Over the last 45 minutes I have come up with ideas such as elaborating on the lyrics to  a song I like, describing my favorite show, and even talking about my relationship. But I figured, not one of those things is school appropriate. I also want to make sure I write a post that my classmates won't judge me negatively on. Considering the kids at our school have a tendency to say things that hurt feelings, without even realizing it. Believe me, I'm one of them. So finally i decided to write about whatever comes to my head. So here it is.

There's one thing that I can't get off my mind, and that's college. Not knowing where I will be in a year really has me non edge. I am a nominee for the POSSE Scholarship, and I really hope I get it, because I want to go to Lafayette University in Pennsylvania, which is two hours away. I am really looking forward to it, but I'm still very nervous. Lets Hope all goes well.

 I literally cannot think of anything else thats appropriate for me to write about. So I'm gonna end it here. xo