Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Is my high schools resume enough?

So my brother works for Carlo Pazzolini, a high end fashion boutique, where only the best of the best are asked to work. (Yeah idunno how he made it there either, lol.)

Today he reminded me that I needed to email him my resume so that he could try and get me a job for the summer. Now, I'm aware of my qualities, and so are the people at capital one, but how do I get that accross to fashion forward people who don't know who I am ? Im not fashion forward people, I just like to be comfortable. Im not sure a retail job is right for me, but then again, its worth a try, right?

As I'm rewriting my resume, I'm thinking to myself "What if these people dont care about how much I did in highschool? What if they dont hire me because I'm a highschool grad who's only prior experience is a very leniant internship with Capital One? Or what if I just dont have 'the look' that everyone is always talking about?" There are so many things that come to my head, but then I think "the worst that could happen is that they say no, so I'll just apply for another job, right?"

Truth be told, I'm not sure what kind of job is right for me because I dont have much experience. The only motto I know is 'Service with a smile!' and it makes me sound like I work a McDonald's. So I'm not sure what I'm going to do, and if i get an interview what I'm going to wear. Ugh I pray to God that everything works out for the best.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

5/14 Make up - PB - My Baby Leroy

A couple months ago, my now ex-boyfriend Deshawn (aka the college guy lol) randomly came home with this really weird bag that had something fuzzy in it. I was so curious to find out what was in the bag, so I begged him to tell me for like 45 minutes; of course, he didn't.

So anyway, in the bag, there was this teddy bear that was just SOOOOO CUTE ! I literally jumped on the bed with so much happiness because he was just so perfect. It was like seeing a new born baby that wouldnt die if I hugged it really tight. Deshawn was obviously very proud of hiself for making me happy with a bear that I didnt even ask for, but thats besides the point.

As I analyzed the bear, I fell more and more in love with it. So then I decided to name him Leroy. According to Deshawn, Leroy is a very Jamaican name (he's Jamaican) and he kept asking if I was sure I wanted to keep that name. I repeatedly assured him that I didnt care where he thought the name originated from, it was the name I gave him and I thought it was perfect, just like him. 

To this day, I sleep with Leroy every night, and he goes absolutely everywhere with me (if I know that I'm sleeping over). No matter where I stay, Leroy is right under my arm keeping me safe from all the goblins and night crawlers. ( I'm a really big punk) Leroy is my baby, and he means the world to me. I just hope my roommate in college doesnt think I'm weird for not being able to sleep without a teddy bear. Im not willing to break this habit.

Sunday, May 4, 2014


See that title, yeah I just made it up lol.

So today is Sunday the 4th of May, the day my mother and I decided to go attempt to find a prom dress. It was an okay day, being that my mother and I argued, laughed, agreed, disagreed, and most of all, burned some calories.

I am a VERY picky person when it comes to things that are important to me. If something means a lot to me I refuse to settle for less. Usually, I can conform to finding something that I will be content with and won't cause me any discomfort. For example, when I used to go shopping, I'd spend hours upon hours looking for things that I absolutely loved, and if I didn't love it I wouldn't buy it. As I got older, I realized that my taste and style is actually very different from other girls. There are some girls who are happy wearing skirts, and others who like to wear sweats; me, I like to wear boy sweaters with jeans and Vans/Toms. (Yes that is exactly what I wore today, a sweater intended for boys that I got at H&M on the sale rack [I'll post a picture of my sweater] , dark blue slim fit jeans, and toms) So finding things to wear became easier for me, since I knew no one else would wear it, and I knew I'd be comfortable.

I digressed.

I used to want my prom dress to be jaw-dropping, drop dead gorgeous. I wanted to win best dressed at prom, and I wanted all eyes on me. But then today, I realized something: I was ready to pay $500 for a dress I was only going to wear once, for what? So that people can tell me how beautiful I look or an hour? Or so that I can have everyone staring at me for 10 minutes? No, that's unnecessary; I know I'm going to look beautiful, and the only person who needs to be staring at me is my date. (ex boyfriend, YES HE HAS TO, SO HE CAN REMEMBER WHAT HE'S MISSING OUT ON!)

Bottom line is, there's no need for a $500 dress, when a $150- $200 dress will look just as beautiful on me. I don't need to win best dressed, being that it's a title I'm only going to hold for one night. I want to go to prom, take pictures, and have fun with my girls. Not have a dress that I'm afraid to move around in because I paid so much for it. Besides, it's one night and I don't want to miss out on enjoying it to the fullest because of a dress.

And my feet HURT ! OMG

[I love this sweater]